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Innofest at school~
Posted 5:33 PM | Wednesday, June 29, 2005

today was innofest at school n there were no lessons..was kinda fun way of learning..its crafted to fit e "teach less learn more" "motto"..they gave out souveniers in e end..its a very cute coaster..n everyone had lotsa fun..

daddy will be discharged tmr..n i hope everything goes finne wif him..

haiz..had a bad piano lesson today..nth was practically gg in n e things i used to remember cud not stay inside

on e way home..i was thinkin abt him..i really really miss him..i noe tt no matter wad i say,things will not change..n hopin to see him is like receivin $1million dollars..i guess its impossible ba..no matter how much i wana shout out loud..nth comes out..wantin to haf e frenship we once had after Os..is kinda impossible..

i feel like he used a knife to stab me in e heart..1000 times..10000 times..it hurts..e scar wiill always be there..although my heart can be mended..there will always be a scar..tt will last a lifetime..i guess i hafta wait.. n i noe it will be a long one..prob its jus fate..its fate tt we met..n its fate tt he left my life jus liddat..i guess we dun always get wad we want in life..n i wish him all e best..im glas e Lord let out paths cross n he in turn gave me such a wonderful frenship..i nv wanna forget him..

although i haf these feelings now..im sure tt when i look back 5yrs..10yrs later..i will think that its all but a silly infactuation tt will not last long...but i wanna hold on to e dream of seein him n talkin to him again..hopin tt he would be e same..

all i wanna say to him is:
"o levels is but a steppin stone tt all of us hafta go thru..but frens are foreva..i hope tt u will cherish me as a fren jus as i haf cherished u..i hope that u r happy n wish u all e best for ur O levels..ihope tt we will be e same after Os n that u will be my best fren again..no matter wad u do..i will be behind u..supportin u..dun eva forget me..go for ur dreams n do not be swayed by wad ur mum says..its ur life afterall..thanks for givin me such wonderful n painful memories..i will always keep u in my heart..n i hope u will too..our time spent together will be etched in my memories..u left foot prints in my life n im glad tt i noe a fren like u..u once liked me,but i nv did treasure u..now im regrettin it all..but i noe its too late..n time cant be turned back..it was like a fairytale..n u were e angel God sent to me..but now e angel has left..but i will try to be happy..n i hope u are happy too..as we each take a next step into e future,i hope that everything will go on smoothly..wishin all e best for u..thank u for leaving such memories..although all i wanted was to talk to u,i guess im jus contented wif hopin tt u r happy..thank u..thank u..(("v")) "

a prayer for daddy~
Posted 8:17 AM |

Dear Lord,
i pray that as daddy goes thru e operation,
u will bless him n touch him wif ur healing hands
i pray that u will gif him strength,
e strength to carry on
i pray that e operation wil go smoothly
and that his hands will be healed in no time
i pray that he will feel no pain after e operation
and that he will be able to feel ur love
i pray all these in Jesus' most precious name
Amen

woOhOO~
Posted 3:00 AM | Wednesday, June 22, 2005

received christ on e 13 of june..wow..its like a new beginning for me n i really wanna noe more..i felt renewed on tt day..really felt very happy..

i guess i dun wanna continue missin WL..let fate decide everything..its pointless..i should jus concentrate on more impt things in life.. n not stay in e past..

very sian now..go study le..later then write longer one..

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..OS..Os..Os..Os..

+heeHee+

phy lesson tooday..
Posted 7:50 AM | Wednesday, June 08, 2005

today had phy..was kinda scared..cos was e only one who did all e hmwk n was sittin down..if he check then haf sth wrong then i die le..my heart was like jumpin outta its place n i was shakin..but..whew..its over..muahaha..then i returned to my seat to sit down while e others stood..wah..if at least got other ppl also finish, not tt scared leh..but..was e only one..so damn scared lor..but im glad its over..

haiz..i realise i still miss him..was thinkin abt him during phy..haiz..thinkin abt e days we used to talk..abt wadeva happened in e past..was thinkin abt him even when LKS was scoldin e rest..haiz..y is this all happenin?..issit cos GOD noes tt im not treasurin him n wans to take him away frm me..im sorry for always bullyin u..im really sorry..cant we haf e frenship we used to haf?
haiz..im really missin ya..i really do..y wun u talk to me..talk to me also dun seem like last time..5WL..y?..haiz..i really regret takin u for granted..i guess its my just desserts..haiz..i even 'rejected' 2guys bcos of u..y ??wun u even talk to me like u used to..

on sun..dad fell n now has to put a cast..then i mus do things for him..but its partly my fault..if i din wanna go to pasir ris..he wudnt haf wanted to go down e slope..he jus learnt blading..haiz..he almost fainted n i was so scared..i was wishin tt "U" wud appear beside me n tell me its alright n help me..but..i guess it only happens in my dreams..forget it ba..i really jus hope tt u wud talk to me like u USED TO..haiz..

*u r always on my mind*
**thiNKing oF u**

(("v"))

Posted 5:30 AM | Tuesday, June 07, 2005

haiz..read e msg history last night..kinda miss e times when u used to talk to me..y did i not treasure wad i had n come to regret now..u used to say tt ur mum thinks tt everything in life is abt studyin..but y r u followin her footsteps now?..haiz..we used to haf a gr8 time..y cant it be brought back..i really do miss u..i used to deny missin u when we talked..but now i really do..i jus wanted to hide my feelins frm u..haiz..wad haf i done wrong..y mus u make me so miserable..not bein able to talk to u really breaks my heart..are e tears shed for u really worth it..i dunno..but im sure i will wait on for u..if u like some1 else..jus tell me..but pls..talk to me..i wan e whole u back..issit jus so hard..haiz..i used to tease u abt her when u told me u liked me..i really regret it now..i noe it breaked ur heart..im so sorry..i really din mean to..cudnt things be like last yr?..y e sudden change in u?i really dun wan tt..all e things u said were all lies,werent they?..y r u ignoring me now..i dunno wad to do..haiz..even as im typin now..tears are rollin down..y?y?y?.. i can coomunicate so well wif u..y mus u leave me all alone?..haiz..i jus wanna talk to u like we used to..n nth more..wad is so difficult abt tt..haiz..u used to say u missed me..cant things be like b4?..i really cant forget u..n i regret not meetin u last dec jus becos i din wan to..u were lookin forward to meetin me..but i jus din wan to..y?y?y? y was i so stupid..haiz..i really cant stop thinkin abt u..when will u eva talk to me again..haiz..missin ya..

*sTh niCE wiTh loVE*