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thought it thru..
Posted 12:43 PM | Tuesday, August 09, 2005

i think its time for me to put everything down..n jus get on wif life..this is jus part n parcel of growin up..n if i dun learn to let go..it will be more diff in future..prob its all god's will...

WOOHOO..we won a trophy for scrabble competition..although it wasnt very good...we were so happy..we also won a scrabble dictionary..n we brought glory to e Lord..AMEN!!..

FOP rawks..everyone was like worshipping n praising e Lord..n i could really feel God's presence among us..lotsa ppl got saved as they chose to accept christ..n i pray tt they wud grow stronger in e Lord..may they feel God's love..

today is national day..n i hav a prayer for e nation

dear Lord
i pray tt as spore celebrates her bdae
tt u will watch over her n may spore always prosper..
n bless spore wif good leaders
thank u for watchin over spore for e past 40 yrs..
i pray tt as spore faces more difficulties ,
tt e leaders will noe wad to do..
bless them wif e clarity of mind as they lead our country..
thank u for good leaders wif foresightness
n may You bless spore wif better days..
all these i pray in Jesus' name
Amen

confusing~
Posted 6:42 PM | Wednesday, August 03, 2005

i managed to get abel to stop likin me..n i won e bet wif dee.. haha..he was one of those who treated me well..but this is e way i treated him..am i worst than a beast?i dunno wad im doin..i guess he was right..i still liked "him"..y am i still likin him despite e way he treats me?am i really crazy?..there are really mixed emotions in me now..abel is right..as long asa e person is happy,we should let them go..but y am i soooooooooooo not able to do tt..memories of wad a gr8 frenship i had wif "him" are still vividly replayin over n over again in my mind.. i told myself over n over again.."shu ning,jus stop likin him..there is no pt..nth u do can change his attitude towards u."but everytime i jus fall into "his" trap again..
wad exactly issit tt i wan?..i treat those who treat me nicely like SHIT but hold on to hopes of someone who treats me like SHIT..wad a contradiction..i really dunno wad im doin..when can i break free frm this web...m i out to break all my frenships?why issit all e ppl who were my best frens r slowly becomin strangers..y m i torturin myself when life cud haf been simpler..y cant i wake up frm this nightmare n find tt its all but a bad dream n when i wake up,everything is wad it used to be..but its impossible..

dear lord
i pray tt u will help mi make e right choice
to be able to distinguish btw right n wrong
i pray tt u will gif me e clarity of mind as i study
i pray tt i will noe u better each day
i pray tt i will haf faith even when i dun see it..
even when i dun believe it..
all this i pray in Jesus' name
Amen